A recent book levels serious accusations against Sean ‘Diddy’ Combs, including assaulting his late girlfriend, recording a sexual encounter with a male teenage popstar, and hosting sex parties with an Oscar-winning actor and his wife.
The book, titled “Kim’s Lost Words,” is a 60-page compilation purported to be from the diaries of Kim Porter, who was the mother of three of Combs’ children and passed away from pneumonia in 2018. Her friends reportedly leaked these diaries.
It chronicles Combs’ eventful romantic life spanning from the 1990s to Porter’s last year. Allegations include Combs’ affairs with various prominent male and female artists and wild orgies at his residence that Porter also attended.
This book hit the shelves on September 6, just days before the rapper and founder of Bad Boy Records was charged with racketeering and sex trafficking by federal prosecutors in New York.
The brief memoir contains unsettling allegations, including claims that Diddy slapped Porter in moments of anger and even threatened her life.
In the book, Porter details how she found and made copies of tapes showing Diddy in sexual encounters with young men he managed. This includes a purported tape with an 18-year-old popstar who later became a household name.
In the memoir’s last recorded moment, Porter, becoming critically ill, sends a chilling text to her friends saying, “he got me,” before dialing 911.
The memoir was published by Chris Todd, a producer based in Los Angeles. He asserts that Porter had given a thumb drive containing her writings to close friends, which he then obtained and modestly edited for publication under the pseudonym Jamal T Millwood.
The book was printed in Las Vegas on September 7, 2024.
While Todd has not provided documentary proof of the memoir’s authenticity, he has made hard copies available for sale on Amazon.
“I was lucky enough to meet someone that purported to have Kim Porter’s flash drive,” Todd explained.
“I know the celebrity source pretty well. I know how close they were to Kim and Diddy, and all the people in the hip hop community.”
“This was supposedly for Kim Porter from the grave, to come forward and tell her story.”
Todd initially hesitated to associate his name with the book due to safety concerns.
“This is a dangerous situation, and I didn’t want to claim ownership of Kim’s words. But now I’m willing to come forward because of the recent arrest of Sean Combs. Now that the federal government has finally acted, I feel safer to come forward,” he explained.
Some of the scandals mentioned in the book have previously surfaced in reports. For instance, it’s alleged that in 1999, Diddy pulled out a gun and fired shots in a nightclub, then supposedly had Shyne, a rapper on his label, take the blame.
Both Diddy and his then-girlfriend Jennifer Lopez were arrested following the incident, but only Shyne faced charges, fueling ongoing rumors about Diddy’s involvement.
Other alleged incidents, like star-studded orgies, have been outright denied by those purportedly involved.
According to the memoir, “He hosted parties that were just a fancy name for orgies, and everyone wanted in,” it claimed.
“We not only had threesomes, but we also swapped partners. Our life was crazy, but I got to do things with Sean I would never have been able to do with a straight man.”
Porter also claimed she was involved with a well-known married woman: “I woke up and left the bedroom where I was,… and Sean happened to be coming out of the bedroom” with a chart-topping rapper – and the woman’s husband.”
Porter reportedly expressed relief in the memoir that she was not invited to participate in certain activities, writing, “I was grateful I wasn’t asked to join in that room,” and noting her dislike for the rapper involved.
She disclosed that her relationship with Diddy was ‘open’ and claimed she frequently slept with the legendary late rapper Tupac Shakur.
The memoir alleges that the first instance of violence from Combs occurred after she refused his request involving a strap-on.
Diddy’s purported plea, “I just can’t stop thinking about that night. It was amazing. Can you screw me one more time. Please?!” led to a heated exchange.
Porter became “infuriated” and suggested Diddy should instead be intimate with a male music executive she suspected he was involved with.
“Then Sean hit me. This was the first time, but he slapped me hard. Before I could form words, he began to beg, ‘I’m… I’m sorry.”
“Holding my cheek where he hit me, I turned and ran off. That should have been it. But I guess I am a glutton for punishment,” Porter recounted.
The memoir also describes a violent episode at Porter’s apartment: “He fiercely slammed me to the ground. Then he pulled out a .22 [handgun] and sat it on the end table.”
“He knelt on one knee, and got right in my face to say, ‘You’re mine. You don’t have a choice in that now. I can’t live without you.'”
“He’s a terrifying monster,” the book claimed.
In a shocking lawsuit, it was claimed that Combs “threatened to eat Mr. Jones’s face” and even drugged him prior to sexual encounters.
In response, Combs’s attorney, Shawn Holley, countered, “We have overwhelming, indisputable proof that his claims are complete lies.”
Currently, Combs is being held at the Metropolitan Detention Center in Brooklyn after pleading not guilty to federal charges of racketeering, trafficking, and a prostitution-related crime, following his arrest at the Park Hyatt hotel in Manhattan.
The indictment from a New York grand jury, which was filed on September 12 and unsealed shortly after, alleges that Combs “abused, threatened, and coerced women and others around him to fulfill his sexual desires, protect his reputation, and conceal his conduct.”
The charges paint a grim picture of a “criminal enterprise” under Combs’s direction, involved in serious crimes including sex trafficking, forced labor, kidnapping, arson, bribery, and obstruction of justice.
According to the indictment, Combs orchestrated “freak offs,” drug-laden orgies lasting several days with male sex workers, all of which he filmed.
These events allegedly involved Combs directing and participating, while providing drugs like ecstasy, ketamine, and BHB to maintain high energy levels among participants.
Post these events, it is claimed that Combs and others involved would receive IV fluids to recover from the intense physical and drug-related strain.
Further details reveal Combs’s staff covertly reserved hotel rooms for these orgies, equipping them with items like baby oil, lubricant, and additional bed sheets.
During searches of his properties earlier in the year, authorities reportedly found over 1,000 bottles of baby oil and lubricant.
Additionally, three AR-15 rifles with altered serial numbers were discovered dismantled in his Miami residence, alongside loaded ammunition magazines.
Combs’s defense attorney, Marc Agnifilo, criticized the charges as an “unjust prosecution,” asserting on Monday: “He is an imperfect person, but he is not a criminal.”
Agnifilo has yet to respond to further requests for comment.
